2014: Rainbow Eyes

Another Gaia Online freebie.
(The eye color is supposed to be grey, but I originally did 'em with rainbow, which looks way cooler. That rainbow palette was in part inspired by the cover of "Never For Ever" by Kate Bush.)

2014: Short Hair and Monsters

First serious attempt on ProCreate on iPad mini. (Not too thrilling, I know.)

Sneak peek of my current work in progress on there.

Had a "craft date" get-together and drew some snowmen and a tree monster.

Little witchy character idear.

To get my mind off of work during my lunchbreak, I started doodling this creepy thing. I was gonna just leave him behind, but figured I can share him.

2013: Leftovers

Started that for a surprise Gaia Online user, but didn't get far. (I stopped in late November.) It was to be a challenge start-to-finish digital image. Of course, I'm working with a computer screen and an Intuos4, unlike the cool kids who actually have a Cintiq and can SEE what they're doing on the screen they're workin' on.

I liked my sketch of this one-- it's really a tribute my friend from years back, Lacey. (She made that wolf mask.) I've been trying to do more backgrounds lately (I guess), but yeah, I haven't touched this unfinished work since August.

Cool idea for a tattoo: A "tramp stamp" that says "happily ever after". Haha. Oh, and once again indulging in my obsession with the 3/4 view of Aerith before turning it into whatever else.

I know, it's not my usual thing to draw non-organics (and it shows, haha!). Inspirations: 1) Driving past a beautiful mosque fairly often. 2) Talked to a coworker about her project of making castles for every season. 3) I played with Zentangle for a night, and used the same basic techniques here.

2014. First Post Of The Year.

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in.
a.
rut.

July was my awesome month last year. All those animal watercolors... I was awesome. Feels like it's been lackluster blah "I should draw but why bother?" sketches, doodles, abandoned baby ideas that just weren't worth anything.

breath.

It's scary. It's deeply upsetting thinking about those long nights of drawing after drawing, repetitive cynical girl music, having an audience both online and in person to some extent.

Do you know who asks me if I've drawn anything recently?
No one.

It's scary that it's up to me to be my biggest fan. I have to believe in me. I have to remember that this brings me joy, damn it-- it is my pride, it is what I want to do. All the fears and doubts and negativity, this ocean that I'm letting myself drown in, needs to stop.

It may not be my career. It may not be what I'm "meant" to do. But I love it. And I need to remember I love it.

This is for me.